On to the next...

I've been through an emotional fertility roller coaster trying to conceive my 2nd child the past few months and it didn't get any easier.
After taking 3 rounds of clomid at the highest dose (150mg), the specialist found it wasn't working for me as I wasn't producing large enough folli's each time (only once but that was a bust), so he suggested I come in August 10th for a review and to discuss the next step, which are injectables.
Not only was this hard for me to swallow because of the fact the clomid definitely affected my system but mostly because I'm disappointed that my body is against me and that I actually believed that clomid would do the trick. I'm not functioning normally and my hormones are out of whack. Such a tough thing for a woman to take.
On top of all these emotional battles, our family bank account it being heavily affected. Sure we have insurance and good coverage, but not good enough! Injectables cost anywhere between $1000 - $5000  depending on the dosage. And I think insurance doesn't cover enough of it. Also, the specialist fee's and injectable management fee aren't cheap either.
This is becoming too much for me and my hubby to handle. I thought it would be easier than this because I never had to deal with all this with Ava. :( We are a one person income household as it's only my hubby working at the moment so this is a real financial burden. We also just bought our new house and renovated so our pocketbook got hit pretty nicely the past few weeks. I don't know how much longer I can take of all this.

I will show up to that review on Aug 10th and pray that the cost's aren't as hefty as we're thinking they're going to be. And most importantly, that we will be blessed with a healthy pregnancy sooner than later.
I just have to keep my hopes up despite how hard it is and keep my faith in the Lord. It's not in my hands after all.